gasp, its almost january!
you know, this entire year passed by so darn fast and i'm not just talking about O' levels and what not.

but its just... i don't know, kinda flew past? haha flew past is such an awkward expression but yes.

thinking back to the first day of sec 4 where the teachers introduced themselves to us to hanging out with my 3-3 '07 clique to bonding with 4-1 and preparing ourselves for prelim 1. that was about it for term 1.

term 2 came knocking on the door pretty soon after, conflicts occurred along with confused emotions hahaha. then the class was really split into different bands for the classes and i guess it was at that point of time where it got really really hard for me since i slacked too much in term 1.

term 3 started after prelims 2 which i absolutely sucked at. honestly if i didn't need to hand the result slip back i would have put it in the shredder.
but it was also during this term that the constant remedials began to take its toll on us.

term 4 was indeed the final push where all the teachers really pushed us to the max before leading us into the hall for our o level papers.

and here i am, waiting to take back my results in what, 3 - 4 weeks time?

2008 hasn't really been a bad year for me but... i guess i grew indifferent to everything around me. indifferent to friends, emotions and everything.
it really made me feel detached from everything, like i had no more place in this stupid world. it also made me realise what a big hypocrite i truely am.

i always tell others to relax and not to think too much about things. but in reality i probably do the same, or even to a greater extent. ahahaha, that's pretty pathetic if i may say so myself. i ask people to tell me about their problems but i keep mine bottled up. i act childish in order to disguise myself as some ignorant, "happy go lucky" kid. in the end, the only person that i'm lying to is myself.

SO HAVING SAID THAT, i think i have a pretty good idea of what my new year's resolution is :)

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on a lighter note,


i'm changing my phone tomorrow, YAY!
and the plan too, DOUBLE YAY!

finally, unlimited sms and more importantly, FREE INCOMING CALLS.
yeap, don't ask me how i survived 4 years without free incoming calls, i'm not sure myself hahaha.

maybe i'll change my specs too, just to sport a new look! heh.
nah kidding about this one, i'm too broke :/ (or so says my mom)