Monday, March 31, 2008 @ 17:02
i'll tell you what hurts the most.
having specks of dust stuck between your eyelids and eyeballs.
and the doctor having to invert your eyelid to forcefully using a syringe to spray the particles out.
and my hair still sucks.

oh and happy birthday to sc!
we know you love your fantastic birthday present(although i still have no freaking idea how they managed to get it).
p.s: blowing it in class isn't very smart.
and don't let your parents find it or else we are soooooo dead.

i've been having alot eye mucus or whatever it is when i wake up. its the yellowish and sticky substance at your eyelids after waking up.
they say you get it during the night after you tear and the tears dry up.
does this mean i am crying at night?
oh noooooooooooooooooooooo.
but i can't really control it, i mean i am asleep after all.
hmmmm wonder what i dream off, maybe getting shitty o level results LOL.

Sometimes I wish I could save you.

Sunday, March 30, 2008 @ 14:58
the present
it will take just 37 seconds to read this and change your thinking.

Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room.

One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs.
His bed was next to the room's only window.

The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.

The men talked for hours on end.

They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation.

Every afternoon, when the man in the bed by the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.

The man in the other bed began to live for those one hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside.

The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake.
Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats. Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance.

As the man by the window described all this in exquisite details, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine this picturesque scene.

One warm afternoon, the man by the window described a parade passing by.

Although the other man could not hear the band, he cou ld see it in his minds eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words.

Days, weeks and months passed.

One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had died peacefully in his sleep.

She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away.

As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.

Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the real world outside.

He strained to slowly turn to look out the window beside the bed.

It faced a blank wall.

The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful things outside this window.

The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall.

She said, 'Perhaps he just wanted to encourage you.'


There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own situations.

Shared grief is half the sorrow, but happiness when shared, is doubled.

If you want to feel rich, just count all the things you have that money can't buy.

'Today is a gift, that is why it is called The Present.'

@ 09:18
Whiskey in the jar.
Was out the entire day yesterday. I'll try to recall all the things that happened but forgive me if I don't. Its not my fault, currently having a headache.

Went for the chinese remedial at about 9.45am. Was dismissed at about 10.30 and we went to play bball. I got convinced by ong to play arghhh. Because of that, I was probably stinking like hell. Sigh.
Then followed Jordan to lavender to make his passport. 4 guys accompanied him; ong, zhi yuan, jovan and me. When he got his queue number we almost fainted. It read 3300++ and the queues on the board was only 3100++. Had to pang him to go back to ang mo kio. Zhiyuan stayed though, ahaha so he wouldn't be lonely.

Reached ang mo kio at about 12.40. Sorry yilin for being late. :/
Met her and then went to the wrong bus stop to take the wrong bus. Sadly two wrongs don't make a right. Had to walk upslope because 265 which was the bus we boarded, didn't go to mac donalds.
And the entire bus was PACKED with cat high guys. And all of them know me so it was really awkward. Bah, tongues are going to wag when i return on monday.

Anyway, met daryl and adeline at the macs and had our lunch. Then we headed to st nicks. The funfair really beats cat high's flat. But what to do? We have you-know-who as the you-know-what.

Anyway we slacked around and managed to get a present for jason. It was a purple teddy bear but the wool was coming out ):
Then as we were walking on this corridor, we saw ong and jordan. Hahaha, what a coincidence! Slacked around for a little bit more and we met yaoxin. Went to jason's house and waited for him for 2 hours. His father is super nice to let us wait there though.

When he came back, we all went up into his room to slack even more! Played bridge before receiving Avril's call that she is going to meet up with us for dinner. So off we went to ang mo kio hub. Wasted alot of time in trying to find a makan place. Walked up to the food court then we decided on having kfc. Walked about 10 minutes to kfc but it was super packed. So we had to go to the nearby food court in the end.

Ate finish dinner and chang took 88 with me. Slacked at my grandma house's void deck till 11 before he decided to crash at my place. So there he is, sleeping on the floor as i type. Haha, guess he slept quite late cause its already 9.40am.

Okay, sorry for the wordy post.
That's all for the updates.

but what if i said i wasn't knocked out yet?
by the way, its not cool to let chang see your little sisters so beware!

Friday, March 28, 2008 @ 20:25
thrash metal, i like...
sports night was cancelled!
due to rain. woohoohooo.
but its going to be postponed to another date, argh.
today i discovered a neat little spot to slack. actually there were only 4 of us, then suddenly and out of nowhere, about 8 others showed up. supposed to keep it a secret though, that shall be my hideout during events.

going to st. nick's funfair tomorrow. hope it won't rain like it did for the past week.
and no, i am not going there just to look at girls. i mean come on, its our sister school what. hahaha alright that's just crapping.

i think i am going to turn crazy soon.
pollution complete. don't ask why cause i hate to admit it.

I'm wearing thin, wearing out, becoming weak
Holding hands with this rope
She's my self-destructive bleeding disease
The things that makes it hard to breathe
But if I shoved you far away
This addict just starved again, asphyxiated.

Thursday, March 27, 2008 @ 15:15
time after time
we were shown this music video of the song, Time After Time by Cyndi Lauper during history today.
couldn't recognize the song initially but i suddenly remembered QuietDrive did a cover of this song. haha the rock version is nicer in my opinion.

God knows how i managed to recover from the nasty flu bug from a few days back.
was someone praying and hoping i will get well? nah, doubt so.
shucks, i have tution later and still need to re-design the class tee template.
keeping my fingers crossed that i won't be braindead later.

okay i don't know what else to type anymore.
so goodbye.

I will try to find my place in the diary of jane.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008 @ 18:58
the sweetest dream will never do.
hey guys, i think i have just used up 0.01% of all the world's tissue paper in the past 2 days. beware world, jonny has a flu.
and we ate the watermelon which has been residing in our class for the past 2 days. mmmm, sweet.
zhiyuan is finally back from italy. congrats on the gold you guys got.
now let me go back to filling my dustbin with used tissue paper.

stoned in love but not with me.

Tuesday, March 25, 2008 @ 19:13
Mr. Brightside - The Killers

I'm coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, letting me go

And I just can’t look - it's killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Turning through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside

I’m coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, letting me go

'Cause I just can’t look - it's killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Turning through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside

I never...
I never...
I never...
I never...

Oh so ironic.

Jordan was feeling emo. So he took a piece of metal in the shape of a heart, put in the flames for an hour and pressed the hot metal against his skin. JOKING!

Monday, March 24, 2008 @ 15:44
i want my hair back, even if i will fail haircheck!
disclaimer : sorry for my constant swearing in my recent blog posts. i think the stress has finally got to me.


i hate my hair now.
why does it have to look like some gangster from some neighbourhood school hairdo?
i don't care i am trimming it at the same salon and not giving a single cent.
bloody hell, actually the woman at the shop is good. she was the one who cut for me previously. but its the fcuking gay guy that is really damn shit. and he even said he was going to cut a V shape at my back. good thing i shouted NO if not it will look even worse.
sigh now i am too embarrassed to go out.

somebody kill me please. anybody.


mass chinese lecture till 8 then normal periods from 8.15am - 1.40pm. then i have maths extra lesson from 1.40 - 4 and then english from 4 - 5.
damn the fish scales and her retarded policies.

if you vapourise the water from the orange juice, you get the orange back.

Sunday, March 23, 2008 @ 08:51
your sword vs my dagger.
i feel like a moron now.
time to give it all.

oh and wen ge!
don't worry man, even after manchester united beats liverpool tonight i am still your friend!

/edited again.

thanks to richie for accompanying me to j8 for me to have my haircut.
so so so sorry that i made you walk all the way back home though. its good to excerise some of our fats away don't you think?

p.s: go listen to One Way by Hillsong United!
because he is the only one that i can live for.
you are the way, the truth and the life.
praise the lord (:

how can i have been so dumb that everyone notices it except herself.

Saturday, March 22, 2008 @ 22:18

Whatever, i won't continue further since its not worth wasting my breath.

Went to amk hub to meet up with jason, yilin, jinhe and chang.
Played a little pool and went to pepper lunch for well, lunch.
Haha, then jason brought us to his country club at serangoon gardens. Pretty posh but country clubs aren't really my type of place. Prefer some quiet and serene place. ):
They bowled only 1 round before heading to second floor for the billiard room. Played pool again for almost an hour before going to jinhe's house to slack.

However, before we could alight at his bus stop, it started pouring.
Soooo, we had to run all the way from the bus stop to jinhe's house which was about 200m away. Obviously, we were drenched from head to toe. Thanks for the towel to dry ourselves up. (:
Slacked for a little while until about 5 when i received some bullshit news.
Decided to go back to plaza sing alone thanks to _________ & _________.

After returning the cip bag, met wen ge & su yong outside bunk. Then trained back to bishan to meet chang for dinner. While waiting, saw eddie, dixian and si hao soaking wet. Turns out that they had just their venture run and they were telling me stories of how many bloopers there were during the run. Most of them are inside jokes so bah, shan't blog about them.

Chang arrived shortly and we went to long john's for dinner. (yes my company :D)Left long john's at 7.45 for the bus stop. Crapped a little before taking bus 13 home. Reached home at about 8. Sorry chang that i couldn't stay longer again.

That's about it for today.
Drat, got to cut my hair tomorrow.
Will someone please accompany me? I don't wanna fail haircheck!

you'll always be my thunder, regardless you know it or not.

Friday, March 21, 2008 @ 11:57
boom boom boom!
Such a good day wasted.
Probably stuck at home again doing homework.
Oh well, at least its still quite slack.
The composition on crossroads will keep me busy hahaha.

Looking ahead to tomorrow :D
But it's gonna be less fun without you ):

Thursday, March 20, 2008 @ 18:53
we are leaving for venus.

imagine getting locked out of your own room in your house.
by your dog.
being eugene sureee is fun. (:

and remember kids, don't play basketball without shoes!
later your feet explode.

Wednesday, March 19, 2008 @ 16:24
take me out.
Shit, i think my face is growing fat.
Need to run and excerise again.

I got violated by tiong shi yuan today.
Nooooooo. Boohoohoo.
Finally rushed finish all my assignments!
OH SHIT. I FORGOT TO PASS THE GEOGRAPHY HOLIDAY ASSIGNMENT UP. AHHHH DAMN. I only rememembered this now while typing. Sigh.

And i still want guitar hero 3!

So if you're lonely
You know I'm here waiting for you
I'm just a crosshair
I'm just a shot away from you
And if you leave here
You leave me broken, shattered, I lie.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008 @ 18:06
over my head, better off dead.
Before i start my post, let me just say HAPPY BIRTHDAY SARAH! Although you are too tall for your own good, i still must wish my cousin an enjoyable 15th birthday. Haha, see you and cindy soon (:

Such an exaggerating day. Lessons from 8am to 5pm.
Its a miracle that i still have my sanity.

Oh oh, and 4-1 is finally having air-cons installed in the class!
Wooohooo. So we are all going to be shifted to special room 4B for the upcoming week(s).
And its super near the toilet and canteen which makes it even better. Hahaha, we can really slack during the period intervals now.

Cannot trust eddie and tiong anymore. They lied to me today, saying metal bands were punk rock bands. As you all know, i hate metal. Think they are hatching some plan to get me addicted to metal. But my allegiance stays with rock. (:

Friday is a holiday!
Anyone wanna go out? I am bored at home.

your hand i can't seem to find.

Monday, March 17, 2008 @ 06:32
term 2... already?

seems like fat ong is going to thailand for 2 months after o levels. let's find out why! The last sentence is an epic winner. (:

Joshua Timothy says:
sian i think i am leaving Spore after the O's for 2 months

Seven nation army. says:

Joshua Timothy says:
to stay at my dad's friend muay Thai camp

Joshua Timothy says:
and train with the boys lol

Joshua Timothy says:

Seven nation army. says:

Joshua Timothy says:
bet if i do go and i come back a killer machine lol

Joshua Timothy says:
serious lah

Seven nation army. says:
and a transvestite

Joshua Timothy says:
nah i wont mix with them too much

Joshua Timothy says:
just box and train get cert of instructorship

Seven nation army. says:
yea you will just have sex with them

Joshua Timothy says:

Seven nation army. says:
and have surprise buttsecks!

Seven nation army. says:
sexxeh times <3

Seven nation army. says:
eh i gonna put this on my blog

Joshua Timothy says:


Sigh, enough of self denial.
Which reminds me, i forgot to pack my bag. Sh*t!
And i have tution at 4p.m. Good lord, its going to be a tiring day.

Oh, and i noticed something.
Why did it rain for the entire holiday and its so sunny today?!

why is it that when we start to talk, i have to always go?
fcuk sleep curfews.

Sunday, March 16, 2008 @ 22:11
homeworkkkkkkk. bahh!
Went to hougang mall for homework session with avril and yilin.
Tsk tsk, you can't rely on yilin's directions at all.
Asked me if the bus stop to take the bus was opposite the one which was headed towards kovan. She said yes when it was not.

Was unsure of how to go to hougang plaza from serangoon gardens because her instructions were contradictory to the huge sign saying hougang up ahead.
Took a gamble with the sign and i happened to reach the hougang mall on time!
Imagine if i took the wrong bus, i think i will end up all the way at compass point.

Met the 2 girls at the small plaza outside hougang mall.
Sigh, really can't trust yilin's directions.
I eventually found the place which she was talking about just by walking there based on my sense of direction. Lol.
Went to the library on the third floor but all the corners were occupied.
So we headed to mac for lunch.

Avril bought the happy meal which is so retarded.
Hahaha, dunno how she could bring herself to buy it, especially with the toy.
But it fits her la, so can't say anything =x
Ate finish our lunch and proceeded to do homework.
Halfway both of them became super high and kept laughing.
Shan't say what happened in between.

Left macs at 7 and went up to the food court.
Saw their friend there and it was like quite awkward for me so i just shut up while eating.
Left the food court at about 8 and boarded 74 back home.
Sigh, alot of my homework still isn't completed. Think tomorrow will be the day i die. Get ready to see my face on the obituaries tomorrow people.

Getting a little tired so i will stop blogging here.

Days turn to nights.
I wish on the stars in the sky.

Saturday, March 15, 2008 @ 09:31
can they hear me?

Do us proud, we have faith in you guys. :D
Bring back the god damn championship like the one from prague in 2004!
Show the europeans how its done. xD




And thanks to jh for sending me "tell me" by wonder girls.
K-pop for the win! :X
tell me, tell me, da da da da tell meeeeeee.

Friday, March 14, 2008 @ 08:39
Give it all.
Today accompanied yilin for her piano exam.
Met her at her bus stop before taking 136 to heartland mall. (is it what its called? hahaha.)
She had her lunch at pizza hut while i just did some of my english homework. Felt so bad since she was the only one eating and i am being a wet blanket. Left pizza hut at about 1pm and realised that we still had 45 minutes to burn. So we just walked around and around and around and around the entire mall. You may now refer to us as "time wasting pros".

Sorry avril that you had to go to ade's house first alone. :/
We thought you wouldn't finish so soon ):

Reached the music school and yilin went inside looking very nervous.
Meanwhile, i decided to take a little snooze on the bench outside. It was quite embarrassing because awhile later, 3 girls walked past and they were staring at me like i was a homeless guy. It was sooooo malu. So i had to sit up immediately and pretend nothing happened. Can't a small boy even get catch a snooze?
Did more of my english homework for half an hour while waiting.
My neck was damn sore afterwards. Had no where to lean on and was relying on my lap as a table.

We then took 136 back to yilin's house after she finished and walked to ade's house.
Reached there, went up to her room only to see avril had her face buried in a book. She really is a book addict. :X
Jason and jinhe reached soon afterwards and we all headed to ade's playground because we weren't allowed to stay past 4.
The 2 girls played on the swing and the guys played guitar. Chang arrived about 15 minutes later.
The 4 guys then played bridge while the girls slacked.

Suddenly we saw ade walking up the slope towards us. Had a friendly surprise haha.
Climbed the monkey bar and played with 2 golden retrievers.
Now i wanna have a pet dog too. Ahhhhhhhh.
Left the playground at about 6.45pm.
Avril couldn't eat dinner with us again so we saw her off before going amk hub.
Went to eat at the food court together with sheryl *sniggers at chang*
Finished our dinner at 8.20 and i took 88 home.

Okay, update's over!
See you all tomorrow.

breathe the air we give
the life we live
our pulses racing distances
so wet my tongue
break into song
through seas of competition
so please believe your eyes
a sacrifice is not what we had in our minds
im coming home tonight
home tonight.

i am going to give it my all.

Thursday, March 13, 2008 @ 07:58
hawthorne heights

Tiong introduced me to this band awhile ago but i totally forgot to blog about it. As you guys can see, the band's name is hawthorne heights. The album's name is if only you were lonely. Its a punk rock band which of course, is my favourite genre. :D

They have a fantastic single called "breathing in sequence" which is quite addictive.
But they still can't compete with the killers! The killers are simply a league beyond them.
And noooooooo, i'm not addicted to metal.
So stop saying that. ):


Today is just a really really really fcuked up day.
And i still have tution at night.
Screw the emo shit.
I don't even know what I was thinking.

But was the dream a signal? I don't even know what to do next. Maybe its better to never expose it. Keeping in silence forever seems a good option. Yes, it is.
OKAY I MADE UP MY MIND. Because its not worth risking everything I have now only for it to stop in the future.

kindly ignore the above text, because its just nonsensical ranting.
what better ways to vent your frustration on some noobs in halo?
nothing else in this world. (:


and last but not least, HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY PAM!
Wishing you all the best in your future endeavors.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008 @ 22:35
if only you were lonely.
Today we had the farewell party for daryl.
He is going to Italy tomorrow for some choir competition and we wish him all the best!
Met with isaiah and avril at yio chu kang mrt. Yilin then came awhile later and we made our way in the rain to daryl's block.

Crapped awhile before chang and yaoxin came. Then we went up to daryl's house to eat the cake we brought him. Oh, and we still owe isaiah the cake money! Shucks.
The cake was nice but too creamy for my liking. Irritated my throat a little.
Also played with his dog, ashley. He is like soooo cute and blur at the same time.
And he loves chang. We all could tell by the way he stares at chang. Awwww. Puppy love indeed. After awhile, yaoxin left ):

But for some strange reason, all of us started feeling very very very sleepy.
Sort of rested awhile before daryl's mom came home. All of us were surprised and immediately woke up with the exception of chang. He was sleeping like a baby on the couch. Haha, daryl's mom greeted us with alot of enthusiasm unlike mine. And she seems quite cool to me. Wished mine was just like that.

Left his house at around 5.45pm. He then fetched adeline home, leaving us 5 to have dinner. But unfortunately avril couldn't eat with us. ):
So after we trained down to bishan, we accompanied her to wait for her bus. (despite much dispute, we still ignored her and waited too. didn't want to give her a chance to be lonely. xD )

Her bus arrived shortly and we went back into j8 for lunch. Settled on having yoshinoya but we were ripped off. I forgot that the student's meal offer ends at 5.30 and we had to buy the adult fare which was a total scam. Haha, chang then let out a secret which i wanted to keep. Ahhhh, now 2 more people know about it. Good thing they aren't sure who is it though. I am deceptive you know. (:

Headed to bishan cc to play bridge for an hour before we all headed home.
Alright, thats all for today.
I initially thought it will be quite short, but heck.

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008 @ 15:02
Woke at 6.30a.m.
Washed up and then to whitley basketball court.
Reached there at 7. Waited for ong for 15 minutes.
Played until 8.45 before heading towards the auditorium.
Eddie, alert, lik yong and james joined us awhile later. All of us were so sweaty and smelly when we entered the auditorium.
Had the boring chinese lecture again for 2 and a half hours. Seriously felt like dying inside.
Had many random thoughts like *hmmm... i wonder if i can dig myself out using my pens*

I think it took a million light years for it to finish. Could breathe fresh air finally.
Played a little basketball again before walked home in the rain.

suddenly, i feel so moody.
what's the problem?
i wish i knew.



是我忽略 你不过要人陪



Monday, March 10, 2008 @ 18:49
Your hands were shaking.

today, jon escaped from reality and could finally be himself for once in a long while.
thank you for that chance.

Sunday, March 09, 2008 @ 12:09
Blue and yellow
Finally finished the new blogskin.
This one took me 2 hours just to get most of the codes right.
Had to change my previous skin because one of my friend had the same one and it would seem really gay for both of us to have the same skin.
Eventually gave in to him and let him keep his, so here I am with a new one!

Its much more simple than the previous one but I like it alot. (:
The only problem is despite this skin looking very simplistic, the codes are like a thousand times more confusing than all the skins I have ever came across.
Argh, until now the picture and the stat counter code is still wrong.

Maybe I will find a new one, but for now I will stick with this.
Off now to do my holiday homework.

Saturday, March 08, 2008 @ 15:56
pictures of you
The march holidays are finally here!
Yay, at least I have some time to catch my breath now.
Although its only a short week before we go back to school.

Couldn't sleep very well last night.
Kept waking up umpteen times in the wee hours of the morning.
Not sure why I couldn't sleep.
What's wrong with me? I don't know.
Think I am suffering from insomnia.
Or maybe is it just... ?

I wander through fiction to look for the truth
Buried beneath all the lies
and I stood at a distance
To feel who you are
Hiding myself in your eyes

and hold on before it's too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

and the risk that might break you
Is the one that would save
A life you don't live is still lost
So stand on the edge with me
Hold back your fear and see
Nothing is real 'til it's gone

Hold on before its too late
Until we leave this behind
Don't fall just be who you are
It's all that we need in our lives

Friday, March 07, 2008 @ 21:02
Ready, set, go
Met at mac's at ang mo kio hub. When I reached there at 2.45pm, turns out that all of them had already eaten their lunch. So I was like the extra one sitting there munching away. But the crapping session was the best I had in a long time. Especially the one where guotai reads the slogan from his new razer mousepad " feel the difference " and jason was rubbing it as if he had an orgasm. Hahahahah.

They also had a rule that you couldn't say the word "come","came" & "coming". Yes, for those who don't know, it has two meanings.
So we kept interrupting each other if one of us said the "word".
For example; "Eh when is chang coming? "
That's how ridiculous it got and everyone had to think what they were going to say before hand.

Headed to the theatre at 4. Met chang there. Then we went in for the movie. The movie is as stated above. (:

After the movie, we went to the food court for dinner. Elphin, guotai & jinhe went home first. Yilin then went off after eating because she had to get used to the piano that she would be using next week for her music exam. Jason also left awhile later, leaving adeline, chang, daryl & me.

Decided to call avril and found out she was having her dinner at j8. So we trained down to bishan and went met up with her. She was with 2 of her friends and we went to S11 for dinner.
Spent of about an hour there. And at S11, I saw like alot of catholic high friends. Like the choir people & even seiyee. Hahaha. It was such a coincidence!

Decided to leave S11 at around 8.15 and chang stayed at the bus stop outside MRT while all the rest crossed the overhead bridge. So sad that I couldn't stay any longer because my curfew was 8.30. It was just nice that a 54 bus came along and I hopped on it. Argh. Wished I could have spent more time with them. ):

Neh mind, we will have more of such outings during the march holidays (:

Thursday, March 06, 2008 @ 21:19
10,000 hits!
Wow, I just realised my blog has over 10,000 hits. To think it seemed only like yesterday I put up the stats counter. Haha anyway, back to the main point of blogging.

Andy, charles & teow kwang came back to visit. Had a really great time talking cock and catching up on the past and present quirks of catholic high. You know, if they had not come back today, I might have really forgotten ( or partially forgotten ) that these friends even existed in my life before. No, it is not that I don't consider them as unimportant. It is just that with the recent drilling of our academics, I haven't really been in my touch with the people from my batch.

Although we still converse in the mass conversations on msn, it is just not the same as chatting face to face. I do miss that. Especially when we go to the student lounge during recess and sit on the pink dildo chairs. Don't believe me? I will upload the picture of it tomorrow for all of you curious readers out there. (:

Thanks teow kwang for teaching me chemistry today. It was a big help. And good luck for the H3 lectures.

And to the people I have vented my frustration on this entire week, from last friday to today: I want to apologize for raising my voice inappropriately at you guys during certain times. This bad habit of having mood swings will disappear from today! (:

suddenly, suddenly i don't feel so insecure.

Wednesday, March 05, 2008 @ 19:55
Rise against.
Today school wasn't too boring. The only downside to today was the 3 periods in library. Ahhhhh. But good thing I brought my sweater, so I was kept warm throughout the entire day. (:

Despite the day being arid, we still managed to crap a little. After assembly, there was houst meeting for sports night. Went over to phillipe again for house meeting with jordan, eddie, tiong & dingliang. Hahaha. We picked the most secluded spot in the auditorium and started fooling around.

Like when I placed both my feet on the chair ( we were sitting on the floor :/ ) suddenly jordan, eddie & dingliang put their feet on mine. So it was like me supporting them 3. Was too heavy for me and had to let go. ):
And no, I didn't say I was going to treat you guys to movies. Don't put words in my mouth =x

Had to do a chinese composition in the auditorium afterwards. Finished it in an hour and then headed to the primary school canteen.
We were imitating malays wearing their super high bags and ending up looking like pricks. But I felt that we managed to carry the look eh? At least we don't look as ridiculous as them (:

Took a bus to j8 with jordan, tiong, dingliang, xiao wee, fat ong, jovan & bryan. Yea, I know its only the stop but it was raining heavily. ):
Went to the sony ericsson shop to accompany fat ong to buy his new earphones. Then went up to 4th floor to check out some psp stuff.

Went to S11 for lunch before all of us split up in different directions.
That's all for today!
Now its time to mug for the english vocabulary test tomorrow. *shrugs*

jon & jordan (:

( man we really look black. )

"Errrrm. So what topics did we cover already for chemistry this year? Speed of reaction, redox... and sex? " - Mr Thomas Aldrein.

Tuesday, March 04, 2008 @ 20:09
hot fuss
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. I took my graduation photo shot.
And it looks super fugly.
Dieee. When the yearbook comes out, its gonna be so humilating.
But at least if I get humilated, tiong and xiao wee are going die with me too. They did this retarded looking face resemblimg "-__-"

Went to NDC for dental appointment.
Initially thought that it was going to be a straight forward type of appointment, just the tightening of the braces. Turned out I was totally wrong. Reached NDC level 4 at 3.15. Went into the operating room at 4.15. What the hell?
I think if I didn't sms, would have died of boredom.
Anyway, the tightening of the braces wasn't too bad... yet.

As soon as I reached home, I tried to munch on some light biscuit and suddenly there was this insane sharp pain coming from my teeth.
Seems like the first day I had my braces on. Had to literally suck the laksa noodles.
Goodbye nice food, hello porridge.

Looking back at sunsets on the Eastside
We lost track of the time
Dreams aren't what they used to be
Some things slide by so carelessly

Monday, March 03, 2008 @ 19:34
smile like you mean it
Today was a fairly emotional day for me.
We got the news that edward retained.
The entire class was pretty shocked because we thought he had promoted already. Who won't? Having spent 2 full months in sec 4. But nooooo, the school had to pry him away from 4-1. ):

I didn't want anyone from 4-1 to follow in my footsteps but I guess thats how cruel fate is. Now 4-1 has only 30 people. Sigh.
Now is not really the time to harper on such matters but still, its hard to let this type of things just pass by.

Especially when you are the chairman of the class. Inevitably you feel you are partly responsible.

Had chemistry o level spa today. I am afraid I lost a mark due to carelessness. Supposed to take the mass of the solution as 25cm but I took it as 10cm. AHHH. I am so dead.
Only thing I can do is to pray to God.
Have blessings on jon because he is going to need all the marks he can get. (:

Over the past few days, we took a few goofy pictures and I only waited till today to post them. Well, only one actually. Hahaha.
Its really random though, so be warned!

Its too late to apologize edison, its too lateeeee....

Do you feel a blizzard coming? xD

Sunday, March 02, 2008 @ 11:36
The curse.

Currently chionging all my homework.
Finally finished the composition on "magic" although its pretty crappy. Think i used up all my brain cells just trying to finish it.
Now starting on my comprehension. Argh.

I feel that I have disappointed my parents alot this term.
Scored a bullshit 28 points for L1R5.
*emo time* D:

The Crimson - Atreyu

i feel it well up inside
and robert smith lied, boys do cry
and with blood tears in my eyes
i'm an anne rice novel come to life
i can't hide the monster anymore
one can only feel desolate for so long
until one starts to change into something
the mirror doesn't recognize
i metamorphosize
the darkness has been biding its time
to claim its latest victim
fresh meat for carnal desires
to become what i became
i viewed the sun for the last time

will u still hold me
when you see what i have done?
will u still kiss me the same
when you taste my victims blood?
so crimson and red
i feel it flowing from your lips
crimson and red
My heart is dead and so are you.

and it pulses through, the desire to change
to deconstruct all of my past failings
but where to begin
because when you live is sin
its hard to look at the saints
without them reflecting their jet black auras back on you
and all i have is hope
my inner burn's not fading
ill wipe the blood from my cheek and get on with my day

will u still hold me
when you see what i have done?
will u still kiss me the same
when you taste my victims blood?
so crimson and red
i feel it flowing from your lips
crimson and red
My heart is dead and so are you.

and all i have is hope
and all i need is time
to bury in pine under six feet of time
the lies i told me about myself
claw my way out, pick the splinters from under my fingernails
i wont lose hope, i wont give in

just live and breathe, try not to die again(x3)

will u still hold me
when you see what i have done?
will u still kiss me the same
when you taste my victims blood?
so crimson and red
i feel it flowing from your lips
crimson and red
My heart is dead and so are you.

will u still hold me
when you see what i have done?
will u still kiss me the same
when you taste my victims blood?
so crimson and red
i feel it flowing from your lips
crimson and red
My heart is dead and so are you.

my heart is dead, and so are you.

Saturday, March 01, 2008 @ 19:53
Don't leave me in doubt.
Went over to stay over at ong's house yesterday.
It was okay la. Didn't really enjoy myself as much as the previous time. Had slight mood swings for reasons unknown. Sorry to tiong and ong ):
Sleeping in ong's room almost froze myself to death, it was super cold. Had to use the extra set of clothes in my bag to cover my legs. There weren't anymore blankets since both were being used by tiong and ong.
But I made it. (:

Trip to ecp was cancelled, instead we went to adeline's playground to slack.
Was actually sms-ing yilin until I missed the bus stop. It wasn't too bad. It was only 200 meters away so walked back.
Met up with yilin and then went to the playground. adeline came soon. Chatted awhile before yilin went to fetch avril.

The two of them actually took almost half an hour before they came back. Turns out that avril missed her bus stop also. Haha.
Slacked at the playground and watched the 2 crazy girls at the swing. Saw how much fun they were having and can't help remembering i have not been on one since 9 years ago.

Crapped alot more before daryl came. But it was already 5 before we knew it. I had to go home and avril had to go to her friend's chalet so we split off at the traffic light.
Should have accompanied her to compass point because I realised I had alot more time left. Haha. Whoops. Never mind, I won't forget the next time. (:

Even though we didn't really do much of anything, I had a great time slacking together with you all. At least it helped me forget about the torrid time I am having in school with my grades and all.
You guys really made my day.
Thanks. (:

Everytime you see me what do you see?
I feel like I'm a poor man and you're the queen.
Oh baby, you're the only thing that I really need.