i had a good talk with someone over the phone in the afternoon today.
shall only mention his name after i ask him if i can reveal his name.

he advised me to focus on my studies.
he told me to forget about everything else.
it wasn't worth risking my academics for anything else.

but he also said what's most important is to go with your feelings.
not many chances once passed by, will ever come back.
so i'm still thinking, should i?

to be truthful, i'm particularly scared of failure.
i want to try, but i'm afraid.
afraid of scrutiny, afraid of many other obstacles that may come my way.
i can't make up my mind. help.

(no one shall ask me about this. its a little ambition of mine.)


/edited

eh i know that you're there okaaaaaaay.
i understand everything(i think)
oh well, i'll just sit here and wait for you :)


Fumbling his confidence
And wondering why the world has passed him by
Hoping that he's bent for more than arguments
And failed attempts to fly.